So. Hello. I wanted to post early, while i felt wortheless, but now i'm sligtly better.
I curretly draw some irl future project 2027 about geography, just one more pic to draw and them i will post high quality on NG. I thinking to make about album my chronic sitting (and suffering) on internet online 15 years for one year early us on one playlist that i make. I get lost and feel empty for drawing since art community and internet in general has lost magic and i thinking to stop internet career even if i continue to draw and make music for myself and few closest online mutuals.
Again, Newgrounds thank you again for frontpaging my song and scouting me long time (i destroyed my art scouts >:( )
If wasn't that site i cloud never have reason to continue make noise.
So the tubeyou has change view statics for worse, i barely handle to youtube since huge loads of shit politics, interenet dramas, ragebaits and any nazi media and medianing online jerks and bullies. I started use unhook, mostly now i use for music and something videos that shows you know.. Life. I get tired more of bsky and find myself frustrating to get attention to be seen us artist and man... Fuck dat scroling any stuff include youtube.
For better and worse i get tired to see feed on newgrounds and it's scroling ugh. I thinking to muted since most artist i got lost interest, but i followed too many. Also i get more tired fantasy themes of art except building, maybe again, i follow to many artists.
So another empty talking non sense post i made. Hope you will hear more music from me.
Also i allow use my music for games, animation, streams, vlog of cats for chill vibe and etc. Don't forget credit to me.
See ya
Happy 1 year annyversary since trip to China/Harbin. Few photos i forget to show
I'm not therapist to tell you for help but... yeah, internet are such a lot pathetic than we unexpected. There's toxic, harassment, doomscrolling, politics and many bad thing especially youtube and social media, I really feel bad for you losing interest and empty. I want you need stop using online for few day, weeks or maybe, you don't need see anything if you feel worse and worse feelings, do something like hobby or going outside without checking doomscrolling, if bullies and cunt hurting you? block them, you don't need response and engage them. Also I'm not force you to get rid of internet, just want you stop for few moment and let your bad feelings go away from you, if can't call mental health hotline that avaliable in your country. You don't need handle to see bad algorithm in internet, just enough and go back if you feeling recovered and better now.
Also I have art scouted but it's gone due to deleted my alt art account for creating new name, I promise won't scout myself in new acc after I got scouted back, also very cool your trip in china!
Without internet my life would be even more boring and pathetic. I tried to watch tv for music and it get annoying that repeat too many same song (i talking classic) there no interesting and low quility to watch. I tired walk same street over and over again and the streets gets worse and worse. I use plugin unhook to remove recomedation of youtube. I just don't know how to continue to live.